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From: chimchooree <chimchooree@mail.com>
Date: Wed, 20 Oct 2021 11:06:42 -0500
Subject: [PATCH] grid push

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 2020 passed without significant progress towards shipping Blessfrey and perfecting my website. 2021 won't be a return to normal, but I will try to be more productive regardless. I know one thing for sure, though. From now on, when I pray, "Father, thank you for this day," I　won't take a normal, healthy day for granted. This year, I want to make the most of what I've been given. <br>
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-I began severely limiting my outdoor activities during January, before social distancing was officially mandated. Being separated from people for a year is draining. I might be a quiet person, but I get my energy from being around people. Even without losing a family member and experiencing a global pandemic, staying at home so long is depressing. <br>
+I began severely limiting my outdoor activities during January, months before social distancing was officially mandated. Being separated from people for a year is draining. I might be a quiet person, but I get my energy from being around people. Even without losing a family member and experiencing a global pandemic, staying indoors for so long is depressing. <br>
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 After over a year of sheltering in place, going out has become such a fantasy. I wore makeup sparingly outside of work hours before, but now every outing feels worthy of celebrating with my cutest outfits and makeup, even when it's a simple grocery run. <br>
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-For inspiration, I started watching lots of small beauty youtubers like Lauren Mae Beauty, Hannah Louise Poston, and Abby Williamson for new tutorials. It turns out nobody makes tutorials anymore, but GRWMs and other modern equivalents incorporate self-reflection about makeup, particularly the wastefulness of large collections. (Seriously, this is a pocket of Youtube where girls act like it's normal to have a storeroom full of PR makeup and <em>still</em> buy makeup on a monthly basis. Then they constantly preach down at viewers for our consumerism, all while sharing affiliate links and hyping new releases lol.) It's bizarre what happened to makeup Youtube, but the new "minimalism" wave resonated with the wastefulness of my time and resources during 2020. <br>
+I'm more of a lipstick and complexion products girl, so facemasks force me out of my comfort zone. I started watching >100K beauty youtubers like Lauren Mae Beauty, Hannah Louise Poston, and Angelica Nyqvist for new eyeshadow tutorials. It turns out nobody makes tutorials anymore, but GRWMs and other modern equivalents incorporate self-reflection about makeup, particularly the wastefulness of large collections. (Seriously, this is a pocket of Youtube where girls act like it's normal to have a storeroom full of PR makeup and <em>still</em> buy makeup on a monthly basis. Then they constantly preach down at viewers for our consumerism, all while sharing affiliate links and hyping new releases lol.) It's bizarre what happened to makeup Youtube, but the new "minimalism" wave resonated with the wastefulness of my time and resources during 2020. <br>
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 <h2>panning </h2><br>
 Minimalist makeup youtubers value panning and product empties. When they continuously collect new releases, either through PR or compulsive shopping, they barely ever use a product more than once. #Projectpan and #panporn challenge this behavior and are full of well-loved makeup, like this Instagram girl's blushes. <br>
diff --git a/src/diary/entries/210701 b/src/diary/entries/210701
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@@ -6,11 +6,10 @@ july 1, 2021<br>
 <h3>friday, june 4 </h3>
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 <li>I ordered some rayon rib knit for a mock turtleneck, but customer service emailed me saying that it's out of stock. They had tons in stock when I ordered, and there's still 70 yards left today...How is 70 out of stock? ;-; </li>
-<li>I want the setting for Blessfrey to be like the United States but not quite. I was using something along the lines of Harry Turtledove's Southern Victory series. The Confederate States is definitely an interesting place to study, but I was just using it as an obvious example of an alternative history setting. Really thinking about it, though, the failed U.S. state that interests me the most is Nickajack. The interior of the Confederacy was speckled with pro-Union enclaves trapped within pro-Sucession states. If a particular secession movement succeeded, north Alabama and parts of Tennessee and Georgia would have become the pro-Union state of Nickajack. The idea of Nickajack has captured my imagination since I was a kid, since it comes up in local politics and rants from grownups every once in a while. The disconnect between north and south Alabama persists to this day. Huntsville is a modern booming Southern city, outpacing the other big Alabama cities Birmingham, Montogomery, and Mobile, but the state refuses to recognize Huntsville as a bigger district. Huntsville also pays a lot of tax money into Alabama, but spending disproportionately favors southern Alabama. Not only that, but there's a distinct cultural disconnect, with northern Alabama's history of technology, connection to Nazi Germany, and general higher levels of education, income, racial diversity, and Democrat voters compared to the largely agricultural south. I'm not even sure how accurate this stuff is, though, since this is my summary of years of angry grownup hearsay, I didn't intentionally follow local politics until high school, and I've never lived long enough in southern Alabama to gain a sense of any significant cultural or political differences. At least my husband went to school in southern Alabama, but I don't have access to much more than his experiences. The idea of resolving the general north-south tension through secession is wacky to me. Alabama's political history has a lot of absurd events and figures, too. The Confederate States are interesting and all, but I think Nickajack is a lot more personal and unusual for use as a story setting. </li>
-<li>When I went online to learn more about Nickajack, the amount of sources was shockingly small compared to how often I've heard it discussed. About the best I could do is find books about it that are luckily available at my local library. I guess I should have checked the library first, since the only times Nickajack's come up in my reading have been while reading local historical journals and newspapers in the library's archives. Makes sense, since I only hear about other secession struggles directly from people who used to live in states with similar tension. (Superior vs. Michigan is one I learned through a Michigan-born classmate in 5th grade.) </li>
-<li>Even if I'm not setting my game immediately into the Confederate States, Nickajack is definitely strongly tied to the Civil War and Confederate States. A modern Confederate setting is just extremely controversial these days, even if it would have probably freed its slaves hundreds of years ago and legally recognized the equality of its citizens regardless of race. (It's not like even the general population of a Civil War-era Confederate setting really supported slavery either, but whatever.) The reality of the Confederacy or my representation of it doesn't really matter, though, since it's been reduced to a conversial symbol, representing either (by the left) racism, slavery, and radical right politics or (by the right) the rejection of the expanding government and progressive policies invading the private lives of citizens. No matter what I do with it, it's going to immediately mean virulent angry things to people. The setting of Nickajack really interests me, especially way more than a vanilla rural South, so I'll probably do it anyway because it's unique, but it's probably going to be controversial if anyone ends up playing my game at all. </li>
-<li>To make it worse, slavery actually is a relatively major theme of my setting, but it's more similar to modern day slavery. We still use slavery in labor to lower the prices of consumer goods, but instead of keeping slavery domestic and regulated, we have exported it. Slavery today's just as bad if not worse than the experience of Southern slavery, but it's out of sight, out of mind. That idea is kind of represented in Blessfrey's setting's exploitation of the hollow earth to support its unsustainable local economy (because the controversial hollow earth theory's in my setting, too, lol). </li>
-<li>Whatever. I checked out some cool library books about local history, though. It'll be fun to intentionally study it instead of generally learn it through osmosis. </li>
+<li>I want the setting for Blessfrey to be like the United States but not quite. I was using Harry Turtledove's Southern Victory series as a starting point. The Confederate States is definitely an interesting place to study, but I was just using it as an obvious example of an alternative history setting. Really thinking about it, though, the failed U.S. state that interests me the most is Nickajack. The interior of the Confederacy was speckled with pro-Union enclaves trapped within pro-Sucession states. If a particular secession movement succeeded, north Alabama and parts of Tennessee and Georgia would have become the pro-Union state of Nickajack. The idea of Nickajack has captured my imagination since I was a kid, since it comes up in local politics and rants from grownups every once in a while. The disconnect between north and south Alabama persists to this day. Huntsville is a modern booming Southern city, outpacing the other big Alabama cities of Birmingham, Montogomery, and Mobile, but the state refuses to recognize Huntsville as a bigger district. Huntsville also pays a lot of tax money into Alabama, but spending disproportionately favors southern Alabama. Not only that, but there's a distinct cultural disconnect, with northern Alabama's history of space technology, connection to Nazi Germany, and general higher levels of education, income, racial diversity, and Democrat voters compared to the largely agricultural and Republic south. I'm not even sure how accurate this stuff is, though, since this is my summary of years of angry grownup hearsay, I didn't intentionally follow local politics until high school, and I've never lived long enough in southern Alabama to gain a sense of any significant cultural or political differences. At least my husband went to school in southern Alabama, but I don't have access to much more than his largely unfavorable experiences in a small town. Regardless, considering a successful state of Nickajack as a setting seems really fun and probably interestingly obscure for people living elsewhere. </li>
+<li>When I went online to learn more about Nickajack, the amount of sources was shockingly small compared to how often I've heard it discussed. About the best I could do is find books about it that are luckily available at my local library. I guess I should have checked the library first, since the only times Nickajack's come up in my reading have been in local historical journals and newspapers in the library's archives. Makes sense, since I only hear about other secession struggles directly from people who used to live in states with similar tension. (Superior vs. Michigan is one I learned through a Michigan-born classmate in 5th grade. Is everyone exposed to these rants, or do I attract separationist radicals?) </li>
+<li>Civil War era secessionist states are open wounds in American politics these days. The reality of the Confederacy or my representation of it doesn't really matter, though, since it's been reduced to a conversial symbol. It either represents (to the left) racism, slavery, and radical right politics or (to the right) the rejection of the expanding government and progressive policies invading the private lives of citizens. If anyone cares at all, it could mean virulently angry things to people in the current year. Nickajack is personal to me and very unique as a setting, though, so I'll use it. </li>
+<li>Anyway, I checked out some cool library books about local history. It'll be fun to intentionally study it instead of generally learn it through osmosis. </li>
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 <h3>sunday, june 6 </h3>
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 <h3>thursday, june 10 </h3>
+<ul>
+<li>I got groceries at Target, so I had to peek into the Gamestop next door. What happened? Even the Nintendo game section is tiny now, and 70% of the store is dedicated to Star Wars and anime clothes and toys. It's been trending this way for years, but at least they had a wall of Nintendo games before. They only had a few used games and controllers, and I didn't see any consoles at all. It might as well be Hot Topic now, minus the band merch. </li>
+<li>Did some blogging </li>
+</ul>
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-<li>I got groceries at Target, so I had to peak into the Gamestop next-door. What happened? Even the Nintendo game section is tiny now, and 70% of the store is dedicated to Star Wars and anime clothes and toys. It's been trending this way for years, but at least they had a wall of Nintendo games before. They only had a few used games and controllers, and I didn't see any consoles at all. It might as well be Hot Topic now, minus the band merch. </li>
-<li>Target had lots of corpo pride displays scattered through the store, but Gamestop didn't have any at all lol. </li>
-<li>Did some blogging </li>
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 <h3>saturday, june 26 </h3>
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-<li>Officially started househunting and put my first offer on a house down today. It's a wild market, but it's also getting more expensive to rent than own. Househunting is unexpectedly time-consuming with all the tours and negotiations. My parents never moved houses, so this is a completely new process to me. </li>
-<li>Apparently, people are flooding over from California and buying houses that they've only seen pictures of, waiving inspections, offering 50k over the asking price, and paying in cash. A realtor friend said some realtors are even buying cruises for the sells as part of the deal. </li>
+<li>Officially started househunting and put our first offer on a house down today. It's a highly competitive market, but interest rates are below 3%. Mostly, my husband is sick of apartment rent for a decent apartment costing more than a mortgage payment. Househunting is unexpectedly time-consuming with all the tours and negotiations. My parents never moved houses, so this is a completely new process to me. </li>
+<li>Apparently, people are flooding over from California and buying houses that they've only seen pictures of, waiving inspections, offering 50k over the asking price, and paying in cash. A realtor friend said some realtors are even buying cruises for the sellers as part of the deal. </li>
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 <h3>sunday, june 27 </h3>
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 <li>Player follows Slime Rally during attack loop </li>
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-Last Updated July 10, 2021 <br>
+Last Updated October 17, 2021 <br>
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diff --git a/src/diary/entries/210901 b/src/diary/entries/210901
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 <h3>summary </h3><br>
 August was all about the new house. So many appointments! At least the bulk of planned appointments ended this week. Once the final checklist for moving out of the old apartment is 100% complete (and that deadline is closing in), I'll switch to cleaning and unpacking the house. Moving is exhausting. <br>
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-To entertain myself for the long stretches of time without internet access, I grabbed the first Japanese language visual novel I saw without sexual content. (I'm kind of a prude lol.) It's so risky to have a random VN as your only game for a whole month. I didn't even read the <a href="https://vndb.org/">VNDB's</a> synopsis, but I guess it wouldn't have tipped me off to how strange and uncomfortable 月華繚乱ROMANCE is anyway. Gekka Ryouran is basically a reverse harem game set in a prestigious school, full of incest vibes and obsessive stalkers.  <br>
+To entertain myself for the long stretches of time without internet access, I grabbed the first Japanese language visual novel I saw without sexual content. (I'm kind of a prude lol.) It's so risky to play roulette with a random old VN for a whole month. I didn't even read the <a href="https://vndb.org/v7716">VNDB's</a> synopsis beforehand, but I guess the tags wouldn't have tipped me off to how strange and uncomfortable 月華繚乱ROMANCE is anyway. Gekka Ryouran Romance is basically a reverse harem game set in a prestigious school, full of rich important kids who can get away with anything. The whole thing gives me Hunter Biden vibes, and the brother guy gives me uncomfortable incest vibes. No one said it was going to be scary. ;-; <br>
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-Honestly, the writing is pretty good, even if it was scary. The vocabulary level is higher than anything I've read so far, barring technical or political news reports. I'm getting to the point with Japanese that I don't need a dictionary for most manga, so needing a dictionary multiple times per sentence made me feel like a beginner again. The contrast does highlight the ironically low vocabulary level of other series featuring honor students, bookworms, etc, though. I suppose they aren't as smart as they claim! <br>
+The vocabulary level is higher than anything I've read so far, barring technical or political news reports. I'm getting to the point with Japanese that I don't need a dictionary for most manga, so needing a dictionary multiple times per sentence made me feel like a beginner again. The contrast does highlight the ironically low vocabulary level of other series featuring honor students, bookworms, STEM workers, etc, though. I suppose they aren't as smart as they claim! <br>
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+Honestly, the writing is pretty good, though, even if the vocabulary is challenging and the characters are scary. I'd recommend it for the engrossing art and atmosphere alone, so long as you're not bothered by creepy clingy weird guys and a super creepy clingy weird girl. <br>
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+<h1>context controls: what do I do after I arrive at target? </h1>
+july 8, 2021<br>
+#ai #character #combat #design #movement <br>
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+My biggest hang-up right now is programming the controls to do what a player would expect them to do. Controls are more consistent than they were in the 90s, but they are far from standardized. To make it more confusing, these controls overlap wildly in multiplatform games to accomodate the extremely limited input options of console controllers. Even if I only wanted to launch on PC, I need to reference the controls of similar games to meet player expectations. <br>
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+<h2>move than do something </h2><br>
+In particular, I feel like I design and redesign the action-movement loops over and over. In July, I published a <a href="">diagram</a> for the attack-movement loop. It translated well to code, but I was too narrowly focused on combat. I felt like it made sense for an attack input to begin the attack-movement loop. The new diagram is more concept-oriented than code-oriented, but it accounts for 
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+Last Updated October 17, 2021
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 #diary <br>
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 <h3>summary </h3><br>
-Mostly catching up to deadlines, giving extra play-time to kitty, and making new friends. Also, sewing a few more garments is a stronger priority than gamedev lately. My old pants and pajamas were too threadbare and holey, so having cute new clothes is such a good feeling. It's also just fun to sew. It's a shame I let mass-producing face masks for the hospital give me such bad burnout. <br>
+Mostly catching up to deadlines, giving extra play-time to kitty, and making new friends in Pixelmon. Also, sewing a few more garments is a stronger priority than gamedev lately. My old pants and pajamas were too threadbare and holey, so having cute new clothes is such a good feeling. It's also just fun to sew. It's a shame I let mass-producing face masks for the hospital give me such bad burnout. <br>
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-I'm still designing and redesigning systems instead of adding content, but now it's to make sure all the systems work together smoothly. I really want to be able to sit down for a few hours and implement a full event, start to finish, complete with dialog and a multiphase boss fight and rewards. <br>
+I'm still designing and redesigning systems instead of adding content, but now it's to make sure all the systems work together smoothly.  I'm also really struggling with making contextual controls intuitive. I really want to be able to sit down for a few hours and implement a full event, start to finish, complete with dialog and a multiphase boss fight and rewards. <br>
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-Anyway, I can't believe I've been titling my monthly diary entries as "2020" all year. Finally fixed that. Also...why is the whole website on such an old version? Have I not been pushing anything to live? I thought I had a word frequency cloud and a working diary page navigation pane. Weird. <br>
+Anyway, I can't believe I've been titling my monthly diary entries as "2020" all year. Finally fixed that. Also...why is the whole website on such an old version? Have I not been pushing anything to live? I thought I had a word frequency cloud and a working diary page navigation pane. Weird. Fixed most of that.  <br>
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+<h3>sunday, october 17 </h3>
+<ul>
+<li>It was below 80°F/27°C for the first time all year! My favorite season has finally arrived. Time for fall coat, fall spices perfume, and fall snacks! The heat has been miserable, even indoors, so it will not be missed. </li>
+<li>Last time I started Blessfrey, it didn't run at all. I was really motivated to add an events and a cutscene, but I debugged the game instead. Today it works okay, but I realize you can no longer talk to Chloe. That makes a lot of sense, since I designed the move-do-something loop to only worry about combat. I should get confident about the controls for interact, activate, attack, talk, pick up, move to target, don't move to target, and probably lots of other potentially overlapping controls. So...I need to make more diagrams. <br>
+</ul>
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+<h3>monday, october 18 </h3>
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