diff --git a/src/diary/entries/210204 b/src/diary/entries/210204 index be80164..dcf4584 100644 --- a/src/diary/entries/210204 +++ b/src/diary/entries/210204 @@ -3,16 +3,18 @@ february 4, 2021
#offtopic

-2020 passed without significant progress towards shipping Blessfrey and perfecting my website. 2021 won't be a return to normal, but I will try to be more productive regardless. I know one thing for sure, though. From now on, when I pray, "Father, thank you for this day," I　won't take a normal, healthy day for granted. This year, I want to make the most of what I've been given.
+2020 was unproductive for me to say the least. 2021 probably won't provide a better global backdrop, either. I know one thing for sure, though. From now on, when I pray, "Father, thank you for this day," I　won't take a normal, healthy day for granted. This year, I want to make the most of what I've been given.

-I began severely limiting my outdoor activities during January, months before social distancing was officially mandated. Being separated from people for a year is draining. I might be a quiet person, but I get my energy from being around people. Even without losing a family member and experiencing a global pandemic, staying indoors for so long is depressing.
+

the way down


+As I watched the early stages of COVID, I began limiting outdoor activities in January, and social distancing was officially mandated months later. Being separated from people all year is draining. Even if I'm a quiet person, I get my energy from those around me. Obviously the global pandemic produced heart-wrenching footage and headlines from China, Italy, South America, and my local area, but 2020 threw another unrelated set of troubles at me, too. Going through everything without being able to go out and have fun left me beaten down and unfocused.

-After over a year of sheltering in place, going out has become such a fantasy. I wore makeup sparingly outside of work hours before, but now every outing feels worthy of celebrating with my cutest outfits and makeup, even when it's a simple grocery run.
+

the way back up


+After an indoor year, going out became such a fantasy. Outside of work or special events, I viewed makeup as little more than complementary to my outfit. Now, a simple grocery trip feels so exciting that it feels worthy of my cutest clothes and makeup.

-I'm more of a lipstick and complexion products girl, so facemasks force me out of my comfort zone. I started watching >100K beauty youtubers like Lauren Mae Beauty, Hannah Louise Poston, and Angelica Nyqvist for new eyeshadow tutorials. It turns out nobody makes tutorials anymore, but GRWMs and other modern equivalents incorporate self-reflection about makeup, particularly the wastefulness of large collections. (Seriously, this is a pocket of Youtube where girls act like it's normal to have a storeroom full of PR makeup and still buy makeup on a monthly basis. Then they constantly preach down at viewers for our consumerism, all while sharing affiliate links and hyping new releases lol.) It's bizarre what happened to makeup Youtube, but the new "minimalism" wave resonated with the wastefulness of my time and resources during 2020.
+I'm more of a lipstick and complexion products girl, so face masks forced me out of my comfort zone. I started watching >100K beauty youtubers like Lauren Mae Beauty, Hannah Louise Poston, and Angelica Nyqvist for eyeshadow tutorials. It turns out nobody makes tutorials anymore, but GRWMs and other modern equivalents incorporate self-reflection about makeup, particularly the wastefulness of large collections. (This is an aside, but this is a pocket of Youtube where girls act like it's normal to have a storeroom full of PR makeup and still buy makeup on a monthly basis. Then they constantly preach down at viewers for our consumerism, all while sharing affiliate links and hyping new releases lol. It's wild. Last time I watched makeup Youtube, no one knew what PR was. They just shared techniques and did skits.) It's bizarre what happened to makeup Youtube, but the new "minimalism" wave resonated with the wastefulness of my time and resources during 2020. It's silly, but it snapped me out of my funk.


panning


-Minimalist makeup youtubers value panning and product empties. When they continuously collect new releases, either through PR or compulsive shopping, they barely ever use a product more than once. #Projectpan and #panporn challenge this behavior and are full of well-loved makeup, like this Instagram girl's blushes.
+Minimalist makeup youtubers value panning and product empties. When they continuously collect new releases, either through PR or compulsive shopping, they rarely use a product more than once. #Projectpan and #panporn criticize this behavior and are full of well-loved makeup, like this Instagram girl's powders.

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@@ -22,8 +24,8 @@ Panning obviously encourages you to buy less and all that, but the message that

panning other areas of life


I guess the concept is obvious, but panning spoke to me. The wisdom can be applied anywhere - unfinished projects, videogame backlogs, unread book collections, skipped Bible readings, stocked up baking ingredients, unused art supplies, ignored MOOCs, forgotten exercise equipment, and hoarded assets and libraries...For each item in those areas, I could have been developing skills, gaining new perspectives, and having fun. Otherwise, it's just junk taking up space and expiring.

-In 2021, I'm going to be more intentional about enjoying my time at home. I've already finished 2 books, made freezer cookie logs, and finally completed a playthrough of Planescape: Torment. The pandemic may have disrupted my life, but stifling myself isn't healthy.
+In 2021, I'm going to be more intentional about enjoying my time at home. It's February, and I already finished 2 books, made freezer cookie logs, and finally completed a playthrough of Planescape: Torment. This is coming from a girl who was too bummed out to finish a single game or read a single book all last year, too. The pandemic may have disrupted my life, but stifling myself isn't healthy.

Happy (belated) New Year. Enjoy 2021 to the fullest. :)

-Last updated October 17, 2021
+Last updated January 11, 2022
diff --git a/src/diary/entries/210624 b/src/diary/entries/210624 index 38dff6b..d8cbace 100644 --- a/src/diary/entries/210624 +++ b/src/diary/entries/210624 @@ -8,22 +8,22 @@ I've spent more time pattern-making than programming, so let's take a fashion br

my life story told through clothes


Hand-me-downs from older girls at school and church have been a staple in my wardrobe for the majority of my life. Anything that was too big, I kept around to grow into later. I loved them because they weren't like anything my peers were wearing. My cousin's old boxy denim dress with white embroidery received comments that I looked like I was from a different fashion era - maybe an insult, but it's a really curious way to be described. Also, sometimes they were old enough to swing back around to the cusp of fashion, like the story of my wide leg jeans.

-When I grew up, I thought I could finally invest in a few nice work and event clothes for my adult wardrobe, since everyone said I was finished growing. Then I get a freakish growth spurt in my early 20s. My doctor wasn't concerned, but nothing fit around my shoulders anymore...everything but old hand-me-downs from a boss's daughter. I welcomed the opportunity to once again lean into hand-me-downs and avoid the costly and demotivating search for clothing in my size. And with the initial pressure of having no clothes resolved, I never really tried to replace my wardrobe. I'm even on trend, since thrifting has exploded in popularity.
+When I grew up, I thought I could finally invest in a few nice work and event clothes for my adult wardrobe, since everyone said I was finished growing. Then I get a freakish growth spurt in my early 20s. My doctor wasn't concerned, but nothing fit around my shoulders anymore...everything but hand-me-downs from a old boss's daughter. I welcomed the opportunity to once again lean into hand-me-downs and avoid the costly and demotivating search for clothing in my size. And with the initial pressure of having no clothes resolved, I never really tried to replace my wardrobe. I'm even on trend, since thrifting has exploded in popularity.

-After months of pandemic-era shelter-in-place orders, I crave normalcy and looking cute again. I still don't really have anything in my style, though, just other people's clothes. I'm at a more stable and independent point in my life anyway, so I should dress like it.
+After months of pandemic-era shelter-in-place orders, I crave normalcy and looking cute again. I still don't really have anything in my style, though, just other people's clothes. I'm at a more stable and independent point in my life, so I should dress like it.

capsule wardrobe concept


I do nothing without a thesis. With a higher-level concept to guide me, everything down to the little details can stay consistent. Obviously taking a design-oriented approach applies to gamedev, too. It's kind of like a style guide for sewing.

-My functional goal is to fill out my wardrobe with some solid core pieces that are easy to mix and match. I'll worry about more fashion-oriented or niche pieces later. My more abstract concept stems from my story above - my attachment to my old hand-me-downs, my desire to have an individualized style, and a lingering pandemic preference for comfy, unfussy natural fibers. Technically, this translates to playing with the sizing of clothes and mixing of decades and cultural inspirations.
+My functional goal is to fill out my wardrobe with some solid core pieces that are easy to mix and match. I'll worry about more fashion-oriented or niche pieces later. My more abstract concept stems from my story above - my attachment to my old hand-me-downs, my desire to have an individualized style, and a lingering pandemic preference for comfy, unfussy natural fibers. Technically, this translates to playing with the sizing of clothes and mixing of inspirations across decades, genders, and cultures.

sketches

I'll make 3 mock turtlenecks, a button-down shirt, a bodice, a pair of pants, two shorts, a light bomber jacket, a kimono, two pajama sets, a swimsuit, and a few hair accessories.
-

+
(image: a bomber jacket with a luminous light pink polyester and a gray, beige, and light brown lace, a bodice with a white bamboo viscose with pink cherry blossoms and blue birds, a kimono with black inky block batiste, a button-down short sleeve shirt with shank buttons, black piping, and a beetle print, and a mock turtleneck with thumbholes and a metallic foil knit)
-Bomber: I've had a favorite light rayon bomber jacket for 10 years, but it's wearing out and has some weird bleach stains. This is basically a knockoff of a BB Dakota design, and I may end up making a few variations. This one is a shiny pink polyester (a beautiful exception to my natural fiber rule) with multicolored lace trim, a metal zipper, and a beige drawstring. I think I can keep the old BBD jacket, too, but it needs embroidery or appliques over the stains.
+Bomber: I've had a favorite light rayon bomber jacket for 10 years, but it's wearing out and has some weird bleach stains. This is basically a knockoff of a BB Dakota design. This one is a shiny pink polyester (a lustrous exception to my natural fiber rule) with multicolored lace trim, a metal zipper, and a beige drawstring. I think I can keep the old BBD jacket, too, but it needs embroidery or appliques over the stains.

Bodice: This is a light layering top made from batiste. It will have ruffles at the shoulders and long straps from the waist to wrap around and tie in a bow.

@@ -31,7 +31,7 @@ I'll make 3 mock turtlenecks, a button-down shirt, a bodice, a pair of pants, tw
泣き虫 (Cry Bug): An oversized poplin button-down with short sleeves and an oversized beetle print. It has black piping along seams, a pocket, and black glass shank buttons. The fit is meant to resemble your dad's shirt where the short sleeves come down too far, the armholes are too deep, and the pocket is too big, but the collar and length will be appropriately proportioned for me. It's white with an oversized print that visually plays up the unusually large proportions of the shirt. The piping and glass shank buttons remain the correct proportions, though.

-Mock Turtle: There's three light mock turtlenecks. These are my favorite staple, but I lost mine 2 moves ago. (RIP) One is a foil knit with thumbholes, one is a striped knit, and one is a 4x2 rib knit.
+Mock Turtle: There's three light mock turtlenecks. This is my favorite staple, but I lost my charcoal gray one 2 moves ago. (RIP) One will be a foil knit with thumbholes, one is a striped knit, and one is a 4x2 rib knit.


(image: A mock turtleneck with gray and white horizontal striped tissue knit, a mock turtleneck with 4x2 black rib knit, pants with seagrass green, brown, and tan plaid linen, a pair of shorts with natural linen with white, lime, and orange stripes and a multicolor fringe ribbon in mint, baby pink, brown, neon coral, baby blue, and straw, and a pair of cuffed shorts with a bow belt in dragon fruit printed linen.) @@ -45,11 +45,10 @@ I'll make 3 mock turtlenecks, a button-down shirt, a bodice, a pair of pants, tw
Swimsuit: The one piece swimsuit is made out of pastel seafoam and pink neoprene with pops of sulfurous yellow in an abstract swampy design. I actually lived around wetlands for most of my life, so it's cool to see a wetlands design instead of another tropical beach or flowering meadow print. It has long sleeves, a mock turtleneck, and an invisible zipper at the center back. The focus is the obi belt made from a contrasting black neoprene. There are three panel-and-tier ruffles over the bottom to give some illusion of volume against the closely-fitted belt and top without adding more unnecessary bulk. I'm not 100% on materials yet and may need to bring in a thinner swimwear tricot for the layers.

-Pajama sets: The pajamas are not my design. They are basically knock-offs from Yahoo! Japan shopping, since I don't feel like importing mall-tier pajamas. (The originals are Japanese-style yukata-style long sleeve pajama set for spring and fall from OPEN-CLOTHES and summer pajama set for ladies in their 20s with flared collar and cute short sleeves from kittyshop.) The only real design change is using oversized rick rack instead of ruffles on that second set. Pajamas are the most pressing sartorial area in my life in which I need a self-assertion. People like to gift me pajamas, but they always ask me my size then buy a size or two down. Why won't anyone believe I'm not an XS! The one time I got something that fit, it was unwearably heavy fleece for my yearround hot climate. I don't want to be ungrateful or wasteful, though, so I've either crammed myself into tiny pajamas or sweated since I was little. That's so silly, especially now that I'm an adult. There's beautiful but unused jacquard fabric hanging in my closet. There's nothing stopping me from turning it into cute Japanese jacquard pajamas that actually fit.
+Pajama sets: The pajamas are not my design. They are basically knock-offs from Yahoo! Japan shopping, since I don't feel like importing mall-tier pajamas. (The originals are Japanese-style yukata-style long sleeve pajama set for spring and fall from OPEN-CLOTHES and summer pajama set for ladies in their 20s with flared collar and cute short sleeves from kittyshop.) The only real design change is using oversized rick rack instead of ruffles on that second set. Pajamas are the most pressing sartorial area in my life in which I need a self-assertion. People like to gift me pajamas, but they always ask me my size then buy a size or two down. Why won't anyone believe I'm not an XS! The one time I got something that fit, it was unwearably heavy fleece for my year-round hot climate. I don't want to be ungrateful or wasteful, though, so I've either crammed myself into tiny pajamas or sweated since I was little. That's so silly, especially now that I'm an adult. There's beautiful but unused jacquard fabric hanging in my closet. There's nothing stopping me from turning it into cute Japanese jacquard pajamas that actually fit.

pattern-making and sewing so far

-
-I'm working the 泣き虫 button-down shirt first, but while waiting for the buttons to arrive, I went ahead and got one version of the mock turtleneck pattern done.
+I'm working on the 泣き虫 button-down shirt first, but while waiting for the buttons to arrive, I went ahead and got one version of the mock turtleneck pattern done.

(image: pattern pieces for the button-down shirt and a ruler and curve tool. ) @@ -62,9 +61,9 @@ I'm in the middle of sewing the button-down. The sleeves are cuffed and reinforc (image: incomplete button-down shirt with disconnected sleeves. )
-After the button-down is finished, I really want to tackle a swimsuit next. I was prioritizing everyday clothes, but I've been thinking it would more fun to have a swimsuit as soon as possible. Since I was planning to take my time with it, the obi swimsuit is not only made from the most challenging fabric, but it also has the most elaborate design.
+After the button-down is finished, I really want to tackle a swimsuit next. I was prioritizing everyday clothes, but I've been thinking it would more fun to have a swimsuit as soon as possible. Since I was planning to take my time with it, the obi swimsuit is not only made from the most challenging fabric, but it also has the most elaborate design. It'll be worth the effort, though.

-Anyway, thanks for reading an off-topic post.
+Anyway, thanks for reading an off-topic post. Back to gamedev next time!

-Last Updated October 17, 2021 +Last Updated January 11, 2021
diff --git a/src/diary/entries/211201 b/src/diary/entries/211201 index ace0a86..b2e85a9 100644 --- a/src/diary/entries/211201 +++ b/src/diary/entries/211201 @@ -35,7 +35,7 @@ december 1, 2021

sunday, november 21 - saturday, november 27

@@ -51,5 +51,5 @@ december 1, 2021
  • My Christmas cactus is flowering. :)

    • -Last Updated October 29, 2021
    +Last updated January 11, 2022

    diff --git a/src/diary/entries/220113 b/src/diary/entries/220113 new file mode 100644 index 0000000..57da0be --- /dev/null +++ b/src/diary/entries/220113 @@ -0,0 +1,49 @@ + +

    new year's resolution (2022) - money year

    +january 13, 2022
    +#offtopic
    +
    +This blog is my gamedev diary, but it's fun to use it as a real diary, too.
    +
    +Last year's resolution was to have fun experiences with the things I have at home, since the pandemic drastically restricted my ability to have fun with other people outside. The new year lifted my spirits and encouraged me to get back into learning, growing, and expressing myself. This year's resolution will once again be about making the most of my resources, but this time I want to approach it from the angle of frugality and money-making.
    +
    +I always make a budget for everything and enjoy tracking my finances and investments. Honestly, I just really enjoy spreadsheets and incorporate them into every game I play, including the petsite I've been playing lately. I was also always the treasurer in every club I joined and made all their spreadsheets and budgets. It's more than just fun for me, though. I feel like it clears up a lot of uncertainty when you know where your money is coming from and going, and how long your savings will last. Even when I barely made minimum wage, my budget covered
    +
    +Buying our first house ate up my family's savings. I've been paying for all the repairs, bat removal (ew), and routine maintenance, too, when I never had to worry about expenses like that before. Also, towards the end of last year, the grocery stores have been getting hit with meat and produce shortages again, so we've been eating out more frequently. It's not even like it's been fun ordering out, either, because most places are closed, only have 2-3 employees, or are out of most menu items, but it's another rising expense.
    +
    +Between the shell shock of covering all those closing fees and the higher cost of living, I need to rework my budget. My resolution involves identifying the most effective money saving methods without making my family uncomfortable and trying new ways to make extra cash this year. The money will go towards savings, investments, and buying furniture for the house.
    +
    +

    cutting spending


    +My husband and I don't have entirely separate finances since we share everything, but I usually pay for groceries, we usually split furniture, and we buy some fun things for ourselves independently. I'm not very aware of his bank account, so this is more of my own personal resolution.
    +
    +It's easy to cut out most luxuries. I'll read my old books or free ones from Project Gutenberg, play my old games or whatever free giveaway game from whatever Steam competitor, pan my beauty and skincare products, and lean on free entertainment like nature walks. Honestly, I don't deviate too far from that anyway these days.
    +
    +The food budget is more important but more difficult to tackle. I try to maximize the nutrition and wholesomeness of ingredients, so I don't necessarily save money when I cook at home. With every place raising their prices, there aren't really any cheap restaurants to order from anymore, either. Using more canned food and meal kits would save a ton of money, but even finding cheaper versions of my existing recipes and planning each week around more overlapping ingredients would help. Since food is one of my family's largest expenditures, even small but consistent savings in this area would have a noticeable impact overall. Also, our dinnerware was inadequate for having his giant family over, but my husband already promised to shop for that so we can be ready next time.
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    +I do foresee some frivolous purchases in 2022, too, so I'll be intentional about them.
    +
    +
    (Very Peri, Pantone Color of the Year 2022. Their interpretion is soft and bubbly with cool-toned, almost blue hues of periwinkle and lavender and warm lilac highlights.)

    +
    +My favorite color was named the Pantone Color of the Year, so I anticipate we'll get lots of periwinkle, lavender, stone blue, and cloud gray fashion releases. I won't miss out, but I want to spend less than $50 on Very Peri. That could look like a ColourPop palette and a water bottle, a set of hair clips and a blush, or a nice hat. I think I'll stay under easily since I can't imagine new beauty products topping Anastasia Beverly Hill's Soul or OPI's Show Us Your Tips!, but this is the year to watch it finally happen.
    +
    +Also, if there's a miracle and COVID leaves us forever, I want new lipstick in berry, vampy plum, and one unconventional color. It's not happening, but it was in my budget last year and will carry over until it does.
    +
    +Other than that, no incidental shopping. I'll rebuy bath products, skincare, and brow gel from the drugstore. As for the house, we'll set that budget after few months of planning colors and themes together.
    +
    +

    making money


    +Passive income and side gigs have always interested me, but I've never put forth the effort. 2022 might be the push I need.
    +
    +I've gotten lots of compliments on the professional quality of my homesewn clothing and face masks, so I should be able to work out some niche item that's easy to mass-produce. It'd be cool to make some artistic things in smaller batches to sell as well. I do my own pattern-making, so another route would be to digitize patterns and sell them online.
    +
    +I'm not going to act like my artwork is that good, but I think I could produce usable themed assets, too. My code isn't an object of envy either, but I could definitely write some assets. There are plenty of gamedev stores, so I could get my real start selling tilesets on itch.io instead of working on this game until the sun explodes.
    +
    +I've also never tried buying or selling things online. I'd like to see what furniture is being sold in my area, but I have some things I could try to sell, too. Apparently Facebook Marketplace is the end all be all. I don't like Facebook and would rather not have an account there, but I can try it for my resolution. The local used clothing store is too swamped to accept clothes, so I might have to try Depop or Poshmark or something like that for those. If everything sells, it's not like it will be big money, but every little bit helps.
    +
    +Another weird thing, but I've never had a credit card before. Debit cards have poor protection against fraud, so I might as well have a credit card even if I'll only buy things I can afford. Some of them have pretty good rewards. It could be worth choosing one based on rewards rather than rates, but I'll need to do more research. I wouldn't mind cash back or cheap vacations just from buying gas and groceries.
    +
    +

    let's get to work


    +If only I could be like a sim and trap myself in a desk for 3 days and write a completed lucrative novel, email it to a publisher, then get enough royalties every week to live comfortably for the rest of my life, despite eggs costing §11. If I had access to spamming motherlode, I might even tolerate the frequent house fires and aliens abductions.
    +
    +Last updated January 11, 2022
    +
    diff --git a/src/diary/entries/220127 b/src/diary/entries/220127 new file mode 100644 index 0000000..d5c5ad6 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/diary/entries/220127 @@ -0,0 +1,16 @@ + +

    projectiles in godot engine

    +january 13, 2022
    +#design #mechanic
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    +
    (image: Helia shoots a projectile at Chloe.)

    +
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    the ultimate keyword


    +Blessfrey's skills are generated through a Python 3 script called the Altar of Spellmaking (like in Oblivion). Skills are just collections of keywords. Keywords are granular effects caused by the skill, like Damage and Bleeding. AoS produces skills that work great, but most follow the same pattern:
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    +The new diagram is more concept-oriented than code-oriented, but it accounts for +
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    +Last Updated October 17, 2021 +
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    context controls: what do I do after I arrive at target?

    -july 8, 2021
    -#ai #character #combat #design #movement
    +

    Projectiles

    +january 13, 2022
    +#design

    My biggest hang-up right now is programming the controls to do what a player would expect them to do. Controls are more consistent than they were in the 90s, but they are not standardized enough to serve as more than a reference. To make it more confusing, multiplatform games like to map each control to more than one action. Even if I only played into the expectations of PC gamers, I still need to reference the controls of similar (usually multiplatform) games.

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